#80 Away-sickness

I can't imagine myself missing home when I leave. I have decided to go to a university in the city because of how unfamiliar it will be to me. Maybe it is impossible to imagine what actually moving out will be like, and that is something I can believe, but the only thing I might miss is lack of responsibility for myself. I've never missed home when I have gone somewhere else and I am finding myself tired everyday by my surroundings. I try my hardest to find new things about where I live, and occasionally I do, but those times are few and far between; I am just not one of those people resourceful and creative enough to satiate their imagination being surrounded by the same environment. I feel like it is suffocating me.

I try my hardest to try and create the feeling of a new surrounding through taking pictures of people and things but scrolling through the files they are all beginning to look exactly the same, which explains the lack of posts on this blog in the last couple of months. I don't want to repeat myself and when I go to college or out and about, I feel like I am in Groundhog Day, as if I'm repeating the same actions in the same place over and over again until I do something crazy to leave.

Here a tiny few of the pictures I have taken of trees in my local area in the last few months.

May 2012

June 2012

August 2012

October 2012

November 2012

December 2012

January 2013

#79 this year has been

a year of firsts:
exclusion of animals in my diet,
charity shops and being a 'savvy' princess
trying out camping and not getting along with it admittedly
wearing acceptable things in public
making friends with the camera on my nintendo ds
sustaining a whole relationship for the whole year

next year:veganism
sustain everything like this blog and my journal
start writing again properly and ferociously (maybe not badly)
sort out the literal clutter i have accumulated
improve my personal hygiene
keep attempting to find myself and maybe don't fail

#78 charity shop doll nightmares

#77 birthday sex

my first legal drink was a becks and i realised how easy it would have been to get served in a pub all along before i was eighteen but that is how sod's law works. i am eighteen now and very sick with a throat infection and i wish today would finish. i did a lot of charity shopping and i am not going to college tomorrow so i will take pictures of the clothes i wear nowadays. my wardrobe is full to capacity. fuller than capacity. i have no room for a glittery jumper or a blondie t shirt i bought.

#76