15 he said i love you and now i am wondering why

the weather is horrible, it is not even raining but just miserably dark and cloudy when it was so sunny all last week. i can feel clouds inside me as well as seeing them when i look out the window. i am trying to complete all my homework today and write in my journal but i don't think either of those things will be done. i feel like giving up, but i have to go to work tomorrow and on monday i have to make pancakes then clean out my room on tuesday and each day i have to revise. it is all due to the weather. the sun makes me sad and so do clouds. nothing suits me. but i think i would like it today if it was sunny, tomorrow sunny, tuesday not so cloudy or sunny and wednesday warm but cloudy, then thursday warm and sunny because my party has been ruined because it will be 10 degrees in the day and only 1 at night so we can't sleep outside. i want to control the weather. weather weather weather. i have other things to be doing.