#65 perpetual identity crisis

Often, I feel like I have trouble grasping who I am and what I am good at. Popularity matters to me too much I suppose but at the same time, it doesn't matter at all. Popularity with the right people matters. I am either in the state of having an existential crisis or an identity crisis, constantly feeling the need to throw things out but not really being able to get rid of them even if they are awful. It can be really difficult feeling this way, fluctuating between one thing then another, feeling completely insignificant to all things, like a dull speck living in a cardboard box or behind prison bars. There would be nothing worse to me than a prison sentence because my potential would be gone.