38 claude monet and revelations

i really wish that i could paint and do creative things like monet but instead i sit alone in my room eating and watching poor quality tv on repeat and moaning about my slow internet connection. i think i understand how boring i come across to other people now and how trivial my life seems. nothing ever really happens because i don't make it happen. all i do is whine about it. so i am sorry to all the people who read these but also thank you. i might move my bum eventually and do something cool.

37 broken laptop

life as of lately:

feminist prose

 

the colouring book briony and alex bought for matt's birthday

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

a day in brighton.

36 a second childhood

bugs plants and the play station matt bought me ♡♡♡♡ are my favourite things i think i am going through a second childhood. things are pretty busy but it is nice not to have college. the weather is bad again and i thought i would like to press flowers but i have no flowers to press.

35 things which are nice//the same old obsessions

recent new purchases and a dragonfly model we found in some trees when we were crossing a bridge which didn't photograph that well. matt bought me a second hand ps2!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am learning that it is okay to mix different things up like i can't really explain it but it is good i suppose at the moment what i like making is little books but i need more ephemera and cardboard and other cute materials like that. i need places to put it all and i am sitting here whining about how i have none of it rather than organising myself- i think that is pretty typical of me.

34 the turn of the week//month

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what do i really do
what am i supposed to do
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i cannot decide or think my imagination is dead somebody tell me
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a list of things i often wonder

• why can i not stop biting off my nail varnish
• has anybody ever sold their own diary on ebay
• do people ever pick a random name&address from the phone book and write to them.  ✿
• why is it so strange to write poems
• should i be embarrassed anymore
• is being rude to customers a bad idea