#45 reflective post about nothing in particular

new books and fringe (i'm not sure what to think about the fringe in particular, the books will always be cool though)

so today i decided that i was sick of all the things i used to write weighing down on me and recycled about ninety percent of writing. there is now a massive weight lifted off my shoulders. i hate to sound like a stereotypical teen (so what if i am, all the same) but so much rubbish and bad things have happened in 2011 and even the years before weren't great so it feels good to get rid of the things i had been holding onto. my writing from last year is also so painfully bad that i am only relieved to see the back of it. next year i will certainly feel the same about the things i wrote this year but for now it doesn't matter. i am not expecting much to even change between now and this time next year, where between this year and last year they have done so and in massive steps too. it makes me feel glad because i had nothing to live for then and i was glued to the worst people in the world. i have learnt that people don't matter at all and they don't affect my feelings anymore.

2012

it's probably not the most appropriate time to do a self-indulgent post of self-indulgent thoughts like this because it isn't as though the end of the year has approached, this is just a random day in july when for the first time in two months, the weather has grown hot. but all the same, i suppose this can be my mid-year (or just after) review. this is the first year i've been to another country and been able to comfortably speak the language. this is the first year i've achieved straight As (only two in my january exams but it counts) and the first year i've started taking reading seriously and i think above that, that is the most important thing. there's also my boyfriend who wants to go to different places with me and an established group of friends, i've been camping for the first time and i joined amnesty international.

it could all go wrong from here.